Focus......

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Friday, 11 September 2009

Choices....

Are driving me insane..................................

For a start I am a Gemini and really the last thing us two faced bitches need in our lives is a choice! Not only do Geminians spend all of our waking moments arguing with our inner selves on every decision we have to make to just move and breath, but then occasionally we have real decisions to make and that is just cruel for someone who takes an hour to decided whether she feels like black coffee or green tea.......

Sooo what is the big decision that is tearing me apart???????

Competitions..... bloody competitions.... I have been doing the maths and I think I am going to have to chose between doing the INBA Natural Olympia and the IFBB Queensland titles or just the IFBB Queensland Titles...

I have gone over the information for the INBA Natural Olympia again and read the fine print and crap it is going to be expensive..... For me to go to the Gold Coast ( just 3 hours down the road but just a little to far to not stay) and stay one night in the cheapest little Motel and do two divisions it is going to cost me almost $1000.00... to stand on stage for ohhhhhh let me see... if I do both divisions I qualify for.... 10 minutes (if I place that is... 5 minutes if I don't)

Ok as the advertisement says... because I'm worth it... but come on that is one big chunk of money so I can get to stand in hooker heels for 10 mins...

And all that it is paying for is standing on stage, that does not take into account all these weeks leading up to the contest... $1000.00 will get us there and back for registration, then us in a motel for the night before the comp as I will be on stage in the second class just after 9am, dogs in a doggy motel for one night, more petrol, entry fees, food for hubby, petrol home and... and... wait for it...

and.... this is the thing that bends my brain out of shape..... $100 to purchase the compulsory Australian team uniform, well that's for a jacket & polo shirt ( just a quick note - I HATE Polo shirts and have been known to burn them rather than wear them), or $157.00 for the full uniform still including a polo shirt...

Yep I checked this with Jason from the INBA and everyone who has competed in Australia and qualified for the Olympia MUST purchase their own Australian team uniform... p.s. I'm not actually an Australian.... but I am grateful that I have already qualified to wear it....

Included in the $185.00 entry fee for the first division and $125.00 entry fee for a 2nd division if you want to do it, and hell If I'm going to be there I might as well get the full 10 mins out of it, is the "free" luncheon on the Sunday which costs any friends/partners $50.00 to attend.

When I mentioned that I could not stay for the Sunday Luncheon so did I really need to have that component included in the entry fee, I was told the lunch was "free" for competitors.... riiiiiiight free.... so they would not reduce the entry fee if you didn't stay for the luncheon... But I really can't stay cause on the Sunday is the.....

IFBB Queensland titles just up the road from my home with entry fees of about $50.....

Not as prestigious, but also approximately, even allowing for hubby to eat and the petrol there and back, well I would say $850.00 cheaper to compete in than the Olympia...... How the hell are the out of town girls managing to afford to compete in the Olympia????

So that is my choice and my brain is imploding!!!!! I honestly can not justify spending that sort of money on a 10 minute stage appearance.... But for me it could probably be a once in a life time shot....

Hubby is supportive and the choice is mine, actually he has reached the stage where he just wants me to decide what the hell I want to do and get on with it.....

But WHAT do I want to do............. $1000 would get me started on that course that I haven't been able to do yet...... $1000 is a lot of money.... shit!!!!!

Got to go now and lay awake all night now and churn......

5 comments:

Magda said...

Oh Cathy I really understand your predicament. I'm a Cancer and I too cant make decisions about anything big in life (unless I've had a few wines and then I'm 100% decisive).

When I competed in 2007 I never imagined that I could/would make it to the Nationals but when I knew I could go, its all I wanted to do. Yep it took a shitload of money for hubbie and I to go to Sydney for a weeekend, stay in an absolute dump so I could stand on stage for about 20 minutes (I was in novice and masters) and even though I didnt place, it was one of the best things I ever did.

Listen to your heart, it'll give you the right answer and then thre head will follow.

Cheers and good luck

Magda

Frankie said...

Being a fellow Gem I am glad I'm not the only one. With me it's not so much the on the spot decisions but the being able to see both sides of every situation that get's me in trouble some times. I hate people telling me I'm 'sitting on the fence'...when I truly just see BOTH sides.

Raechelle said...

Yeah- that sucks...sort of takes the whole fun out of it when they whack all of those fees on! It makes me think again that I don't want to compete again-these guys are making money off of the competitors-they should be making money off of the audience that comes to watch the show-us competitors being the show!!!!
Somebody is getting rich and unless you get heaps of sponsorship and modelling deals it ain't us competitors.
Having said that....I'm sure in the end your head & heart will agree on something! :-)

Esme said...

Very expensive sport considering the amount of work you must do to get there. I think that's the key, what have you been doing all that work for? Would you regret not doing the National Olympia? Or are there things you feel are more important? Hard decision. Es

mq01 said...

witchazel, you hear your heart, its just difficult to swallow how much it costs. if there is any chance that its a once in a lifetime thing then you MUST try/go for it. add a widget for supporter aid (like donations)
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