SOooo close to tossing it.....

I am sure my last few posts have shown that my head space has been fog bound... I have spent the last few weeks struggling with the choice to compete...

I do love to compete, I love to train, and even the constant food monitoring doesn't worry me, in fact I have found that the food control thing suits me fine...


My problem has been the time it takes to get ready for a comp... and really how this impacts on everyday normal lives... or even... in my case.. slightly abnormal lives...


I struggle with the feeling that my life is in a constant rush... from the time the alarm goes off at 4.30am until I finally get home from the gym at 6.30pm after fitting in a day of cardio, office work, meal prep, training and more cardio.... then there is stillmore meals and night time stuff to do...

I get frustrated and grumpy when I am held up by other ignorant people sitting on machines or using benches as drink holders when the gym is busy... I am constantly looking at my watch to make sure I can fit everything I need to do into my days... this is making me lose focus on what I need to do and what I must achieve...


Finally I have realised that its not the competition prep time that I need to reduce... this is what I love.. why should I even be considering giving up something I love!!! I have finally decided that the world won't end if I don't get the floors mopped every Saturday morning...

I have now made a conscious choice that what I want to do is going to be more important than what I have to to... I am now 3 months out from my comp... this is what I am now focusing on... this is what I want to do... sorry world if my washing hangs on the line for 3 days before I have time to get it in... but tough I have a life and some things have to just wait....

Although I started this blog last night I am finishing it Wednesday morning so it is now Hump day and measurement day..... Favorite day of the week!!!!!! well that and Friday of course lol

Will try and fit in a quick round up of results tonight... but if I run out of time.... well tough... I have a life to live... lol