Do it or go away!!!!

Well I had better warn you this isn't going to be a pleasant blog....

I have now had an "almost sickness" for about 6 weeks and I am totally over it!!!!

Its been like some sort of weird "almost sick" cycle and I just want to either get sick or for the damn thing to bugger off!!!

Once again I have the runs (sorry but I just have to rant about it!!!) this joyful occurrence keeps my stomach gurgling so loud you can hear it from the room next door and has me running to the loo for two days then away it goes and every thing gets back to normal, then about three days later back it comes with the gurgling starting the the running quickly follows... All this takes place with a nice tight headache that tags along for the jogs to the loo..

Now at first I thought.. "those damn fat burners"...
Then it was the new brand of Calcium tablets....
Then I blamed the egg whites....

Then after a couple of weeks of my stomach making weird noises and me having to dash out of the office... my boss mentioned that she had this weird upset tummy that was making these really strange noises! So we compared nasty notes and damn it! Its a tummy bug and we had both had it for the same amount of time!!! So we both waited for it to become something totally unbearable... and waited... and waited... but nope it just lurks and strikes... lurks and strikes and now 6 weeks later I just want the stupid thing to become a fully fledged member of the illness tribe or to just get the idea that it has failed and go away!!!

How ridiculous is it that I am now jealous of Hubby as he came down with a real tummy bug today, yep it struck like lightening, had him violently ill for 4 hours and now he is warn out but fine... meanwhile I am gurgling away like crazy and knowing that once again the night will be spent running back and forward....

Luckily this doesn't appear to be hampering my contest prep, although it has stopped me from training tonight... But I am still hoping for a good result from the weigh in tomorrow...

The problem I have is that I do not want to take anything too strong to stop the problem in case it makes me hold water or cause the reverse problems that those types of medicines can cause. Of course I don't want to be taking anything the night before weigh in... But tonight I just gave in and popped a pill and hoped that all this weeks work doesn't get wrecked because of it..

I also had one of those"I look like old shit" days today after waking up to a round belly and flat muscles... Some days no matter how hard I train or spin I see myself in a mirror and I see an old saggy flat 50 year old lady with no boobs left, thanks to the dieting, and those days are sucky....

Sorry about the whinge........ but really... why can't I just get sick with the killer flu that every one else at work seems to be catching, with the coughing, spluttering, having days off sick and then looking like a beaten swollen crap pile for a couple of weeks... ahhhhhh now that's an illness and it is amazing that I haven't got it since everyone seems so intent on sharing it...

ahhh thankfully it is hump day tomorrow... and now I will have my jelly and gurgle to bed...