Focus......

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Tuesday, 29 September 2009

SMACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That was me hitting the wall yesterday afternoon..

I became Totally Plotless... exhaustion was coupled with some bad news and I fell apart into a sobbing, gasping, literally turning-in-small-circles in the hallway heap of snot!

I had no energy reserves to battle the bad news (financial) and so my body went into meltdown. Total mind blank, robot like state of nothing... The only good thing I can say is that I was so past my coping point that I was too weak to head for the food, so my pre-contest diet stayed in perfect order... Ha! Silver lining yay!

I won't go into gory details but the bad news has been almost sorted by a lot of leg work by Hubby who once again has been my rock and worked hard last night and today to make sure I could totally ignore the crisis (at least until the 20th of October) and get back into concentrating on the competition...

The first thing he did was put my entries in for the Olympia so the money was spent on that and I do not have to go through my indecision of being worth the cost... No excuses now!!!! LOL

I collapsed into bed early and even then I could hardly move to train this morning and after struggling round the gym I came home early, went to work where my boss took one look at me and sent me home on sick leave (God bless her!) so spent this morning sleeping and by the time I woke up Hubby had worked his arse off on the problem and literally reduced it by half...

Once I had eaten, and since the fat is disappearing off me in the obviously girly places, I spent some of this afternoon adding padding into my Bikini top to fill the gaps left by the ever elusive boobs... sigh! I really was hoping to buy me a pair of those babies for my 50th but after yesterdays news it ain't going to be a happening thing unless I get them for my 80th birthday....

After adding the space fillers into the bikini I went back to the gym this afternoon and managed to get my leg training done (with slightly lighter than normal weights) and all of my cardio and I am still on track... although still absolutely buggered... so it will be another early night for me tonight.

I think that itcan be easy to read these blogs and not think about the everyday stuff that still happens to everyone out there even when we are preparing for these competitions, not only do we deal with the diets, training, exhaustion and fitting-it-all-in factors, we still have normal shit that sneaks up and bites our fat reduced arses...

Its measurement day tomorrow and I will be 18 days out from the comp... eeeekkkkk

I did have some great news last night with a catch up phone call from my Son, poor thing he rings to give me good news and I sob at him... sorry about that Boy Child... But I am very happy for you!!!

Well its food time... will fill you in on the numbers tomorrow...

5 comments:

Frankie said...

Oh Cathy...big HUGS. You poor bugger. Hope it all works out. Finances suck..it's always there at the back of my mind too but you just gotta do what you can do.

Sending positive vibes hun xxx

Dawn said...

I'm sorry that you are going through some things right now. Keep your head up and hang in there.

Raechelle said...

Sorry about the rough road girl! You'll get through it though...everything works itself out eventually! :-)

mq01 said...

awww cath, hang in there, youve got a fantastic hubby, and you have only 17 days to go...things will ease up soon. let hubby do the worrying and fixing, men are good for that. here im passing a bottle to ya!!..

i almost included in my post last night, adela patting bob's wings this weekend was such a huge coincidence that i wished i had taken a pic. i felt like she was patting bob for you, from across the pond :)

big hugs...

mq01 said...

you ok? ok..now..breath focus and kick ass sweetie!!! kick ass!!! you're almost there..woohoo!!! put those heels back on ;)