Focus......

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Sunday, 28 February 2010

Bruce & Zinnie.....

Amanda, Neil and the kids flew back to NZ yesterday for Amandas friends wedding and to catch up with her Dad and all the rest of their combined families still in the old country...

Made me homesick....
Made me miss Clarks hugs even more than usual...
Made me miss my friends...
Made me crave, totally crave, toasted Vogels bread and Eta Peanut Butter, which you can not get in Australia and I didn't realise how much I missed it till I saw one of my NZ Facebook Buddies comment on it the other day... but its ok cause Manda sent me a message saying she had it for breakfast this morning... Bitch... So I have eaten it by proxy.... sigh!
Made me budgie sit Bruce and Zinny her budgies, who are now Tank's Budgies....

He LOVES them, watches them, guards them, and growls at Morgan if she even looks at them..

They are now his pets...

My Pet has his own Pets... how spoilt is that LOL

Trained Chest and Triceps yesterday, once again had a hard job being motivated and it was a half arsed effort that I put in, I did have a great cardio session at the end of it though but still came back feeling blahhhhh

I spent the rest of the day battling with cravings for biscuits, totally battling...

I made sure I was never home alone so I could not cheat, luckily there is nothing to really cheat with in our house but I just knew I would if I could...

I then spent the whole drive back from dropping Manda, Neil and the kids at the airport convincing myself that I would not,must not, could not stop at any of the service stations and eat anything sweet that I could lay my hands on...

It was a hell day of cravings but in the end I managed to last the whole day and although I went to bed feeling hungry I was bloody proud that I had made it through the day... one more down...

The cravings haven't been so bad today but they are still lurking... I hang out for my protein powder and diet jelly as my last meal of the day and I am still adamant that I am the carbohydrate version of an alcoholic...

I am a carboholic and please realise I am not making light of alcoholics, I can not even imagine the will power that it takes them to be so strong and manage every day of their lives, every one of them is amazing in my books!

But hell I just know that if I even consider eating one cake right now that will be it, I would not be able to stop at one, oh ok one whole cake, like one of those catering versions that feed 35 people... yeah ok then I could stop at one... hmmmm maybe...... no I could... hmmmm if it had marshmallows on top... then.. maybe...

We shot out and saw friends this morning to see their new home and I feel really guilty cause I had a total rave about being hassled about what I eat at work. It was totally uncool of me since the friends are the GM from work and his wife who we have known for ages. I really lost my cool completely... They didn't seem to mind too much but I think I will have to phone and apologise for the rant...

Anyway that has been the weekend so far, I didn't do the Sunday morning waterfront run as my body just needed to rest, I'm about to head to the gym for Sunday posing and that will do me for today for we all know that an hours worth of posing is not an easy thing...

Ohhh and if any of you see my motivation wandering around the streets looking lost can you post it back to me please... I do think I have misplaced it somewhere...

7 comments:

RaeC said...

Big hugs Cath... I had a chocolate craving day on Monday I think it was? If you can make it through a day like that you can make it through any day. It's those days that test us the most, but it's also the memory of making it through those days that make the victory of standing on stage even more euphoric. Love Rae xxx

Lauren said...

Great work on beating down that sugar fairy! She is one seductive bitch sometimes.

Good luck with your week Cath!

Leanne said...

Love the pic of your dog guarding the budgies, lol!
I def have days where I am fighting those bloody cravings all day!! I am with you on the carbaholics thing, maybe we should start a meeting group, lol!
Have a great week!

Charlotte Orr said...

Mmm, Vogels. Now there's something I haven't had a for a while. Love the pic of your dog and the budgies. Good work on staying away from the sweets!

Witchazel said...

Hey Rae, funny I don't crave choccy anymore, I was a total chocoholic and would eat a kingsize block in 20 minutes!! Byt now I crave biscuits.... plain arrowroot biscuits... weird..

Lauren, yes she is a total Bitch, you got to watch those sweet ones they are always nice to your face then wham total bitch on your hips...

Leanne!!! Hello my name is Cath and it has been 5 weeks since my last carb LOL yeah I could so see a group of us figure girls doing that LOL

Hey Charlotte.. I KNOW, as soon as I saw Vogels I was all..yummmmmmmmm I Miss Vogels toasted!!!!

Also managed to avoid the sweets today... another one down... Oh and I think Tank is in love with Bruce.. sigh!

mq01 said...

well ive looked around high and low, havent seen your mojo wandering lost here. as a matter of fact, your mojo and my mojo are out riding i bet!!! f'ers, LOL!... xoxo!!!

Witchazel said...

LOL MQ!!! I reckon thats exactly where they are... but if they are doing it here they will be riding underwater it hasn't stopped raining in 24 hours!!!