New Day... New changes.. New Numbers

Exhausted this morning from a night tossing and turning and lifting and tossing ,catching and missing ideas trying to find a way to keep motivated and actually fit everything into my days so I could still compete, study, and earn enough money to eat...

Was back at the gym at 5am as the new curfew was to take effect on Monday and really, the last place I wanted to be was in that sodding gym.

After giving up on training abs as one of the retired gentlemen (yes I am gritting my teeth and being nice to my elders) who must come in at 5am to fit all the naps into his day loves to stand and chat while standing inside the roman chair and honestly.... if I had to listen to him tell Hubby "Oh well, just one of those things, will have to come down at 6am" one more time I was going to shove a 10kg plate into a place that it may not be made for, but hell I would make it fit...

Managed 47 minutes of my 60 minutes of cardio till I just knew I was going to become an even more obnoxious animal than normal to anyone who spoke to me, and gave up... but not before ensuring that Julie (the other competitor struggling to fit everything into her world) got the one and only cross trainer after me hehehehehe

I felt like a bucket of cold fat and a raw egg squished through a blue stocking.... you know just bloody awful, tired, blue and over trying to unravel my schedule and training thoughts from the anger and stress boiling in my brain... Could not make it work in my head unless my study time became 3am so I just did the morning stuff and headed to work...

THEN... Hubby phoned me at 10am to let me know that after a nice conversation with Joel - the new gym owner - explaining how crucial it is at this point to me and the three other girls who are competing to keep everything running smoothly when the first comp is only 8 weeks away... Joel agreed to personally open the gym at 5am for everyone to see who needs it and until something else can be organised... HUGE HUGS TO JOEL!!!! And to Hubby f course for being so damn supportive!!!!

So stress levels dropped at least four notches, except that of course it was measurement day, so that was my next point of focus...

Headed up to see Lyn at Body Shaping Basics for a fitting of my other bikinis, that lady is a magician when it comes to suits!!! I will be collecting them on Sunday, and then Hubby has his bling to organise for them - yay!!!

Straight to Kels, and the results for this week are not amazing but they are steady and good... 2.8mils drop, skin folds now 58.2mm which is just a infinitesimal bit ahead of target but still ahead, body fat is sitting at 11.7% and weight is down 700gms, still lost a little muscle but this week it was mostly the goo that is laying on the floor somewhere..

In the middle of the trip between Lyn and Kelli Mum phoned to say Dads artificial leg has broken and he had a nasty fall today, he needs to go to Brisbane Hospital on Monday afternoon and needs to be driven there..... I felt bad but I just could not manage it on a Monday as its the pay day at work, so I pointed her in the direction of my brother and hinted that maybe it was his turn to help them... Turned out that they can get a free taxi/ambulance ride there, whew!

Yes the guilt is laying thick on my head tonight.. but my head space is recovering, still feel like I have been hit by a truck but at least today the truck is full of feathers and not bricks...

So just when I thought I might actually get to sleep in next week.... nah!!!! And really who wants to be asleep at 4am anyway LOL

PS!!!!! Hubby had his skinfolds done today and we are NOT speaking to him OK.... 7.5% bodyfat, and he is grumpy as his skinfolds have gone up to a whole..... 40mils.. humpf!!! Men!