Thanx and the reasons...

Thank you all so much for your comments on my Total Melt Down.....

Yes it was a TOTAL Melt Down..... Culminating in me spending the majority of yesterday either asleep or sobbing....

And although I finally laid the blame at the feet of the comments from the people who I thought, being my friends may actually support me, it really was a culmination of a pile of what can only be described using Fifi's all encompassing "Pooh Cherries"

By the time I received the "She can't ride her bike without a huge backpack of wonder food" comment when invited to a BBQ where surely I could "God just eat a hunk of steak, how hard is that???" just after the "surely you can just throw away the bread from a steak sandwich" and the *rolling eyes big sigh* "So you Stilllllll doing the whole chicken thing....sigh" I had already pretty much had a hell week.

Dad in and out of hospital, cuddling Mum who really is a tiny 4'9" of 84 year old nothing with a little white fluff on the top, shivering by his side and stressed trying to hold it together so she wouldn't upset Dad while making herself sick doing it.

The gym saga of on again off again hours, where we were promised entry until Monday and then another 3 weeks of 5am opening to discover only another week of 5am openings and the locks changed on Saturday not Monday.... This will require a total rehash of my life to fit the new training in the evening and food being adjusted to fit, not a small thing when you are only 7 weeks out from a competition...

Not being able to fit my study into the now diminishing times due to extra cardio,hospital visits, work, exhaustion and trying very hard to make sure Hubby gets to do what he wants at least one day week....

Other general life and money worries because as we know bikinis, bling, personal trainers etc are not the cheapest thing and then there is the food and supplements..

So by Saturday morning I was official written off.... Did not stay on diet but luckily because there is just Hubby and me and he does pretty much eat the same as me but more of it I was able to go off diet by only adding protein powder to just about every meal (its the only bloody sweet stuff in our house!) and by also adding 3 small handfuls of raw almonds... hmmm pretty poor excuse for a binge eh...lol

Today I am back, we ran the waterfront as we do on a Sunday, I have eaten on plan all day and we got into the Truck and went to a Rockabilly gathering...... which turned out to be a very small affair but fun then on to Westend for coffee and browsing book stores (my favourite!!!!) and clothing stores (Hubbies favorite!!!)

So another week looms... I am considering missing the April show and concentrating on May this will take some of the pressure off, but it will depend on my measurements on Wednesday. If I am still on track I will keep aiming for April...

Once again thank you all sooooo much for your comments, honestly without you guys this would be an almost impossible task for me. I also must thank my Daughter for telling me how great she thinks I am, I think she is pretty bloody great herself, and having her support means more to me than anything...

Now some photos from today.... And the eternal question... why must men look inside?????