Focus......

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Sunday, 18 April 2010

How?

Before you start reading this be warned... it turns out to be a big whinge..... so if you are happy its probably better if you go and read someone elses blog....

I spend at least an hour everyday... hmmmm let me think... yeah at would be at least an hour ...... some days a lot more than an hour.... Searching...

I google businesses for sale... everyday... although I could never afford to buy one...
I google fitness and health and nutrition and exercise.. hoping to discover... how...

How do I live this fitness life I love so much full time, without having to exist in another world that I enjoy because I have no choice... I am there so I make the most of it... but I so dearly want out... I crave OUT

I have come to realise that while my Certificate in Nutrition will give me a great grounding in nutrition it will not amount to enough to make a living from... and although it is no longer really what I need to help me move to where I want to be I will not waste what I have done and give up on it, but my heart is not in it...

I really want to help others become happy with themselves... show other 50 year olds that they do not need to slow down but that they now have the time to speed up..... to live and be healthy and enjoy being this fabulous "been there done that now what else can I achieve" age...

I do not ave the money to now do a PT Course, that's where I should have headed originally, but now the Nutrition course has eaten that money up... bugger....

Its a wet Sunday here and Hubby has been vomiting since 8pm last night, right about the time we arrived with friends to watch the Roller Derby in Brisbane City last night...

Yep we walked in and then Hubby disappeared for the whole 3 hours we were there having to spend the entire time in the toilets or sleeping in our friends car... not good, for him...

Me? well I am no nurse, I hate sick people... go be sick, shut up,get well, let me know when that happens.. the end... Not apologising for this, its just how I am, Hubby knows this so that's what he has done... So I had a great time, those Roller Derby girls are amazing!!! There was over 4000 people there which was way more than I expected and the crowd were as interesting as the Roller Derby... I loved it!!!!

Today I have spent the day studying while Hubby has slept, just made him some chicken soup.. see I can sort of nurse.. but the rest of the day has dragged along for me and as the sky has grown darker so has my mood...

I am sure this will change when I get back to the gym tomorrow.... I love the weights... they make me feel whole, in charge, alive....

Wow this has turned out to be a woe is me festival - so I better go back to the top and post a warning about that...... ahhh well shit happens.......

3 comments:

Chelle said...

OMG cath i think our stars have aligned today! I have spent all day thinking of what i would actually love to spend my day doing in regards to work. Yeah i have a pretty good job with lots of perks BUT i by no means LOVE it. Infact i despise all the emails about sales figure, deals etc, sigh. Like you, living the health and fitness life ALL day is what i want too. Maybe its a matter of putting it out there to the universe and seeing what it brings us????...... Glad you had a blast at roller derby. Sending positive vibes your way for a fabulous day tomorrow! =)

mq01 said...

a childhood GF came from a roller derby family, love it!!

hmmm, mercury retrograde, i had to check my horoscope because its here too. its not a whine its just the facts :) the planets are causing us to step back, look inward, and ask questions.

i had a man tell me last week that i scare men because i easily live in two worlds. wow, two worlds. ive been pondering two worlds since. (theres a blog post in me here somewhere, lol). i think he was right. but it just means im an accountant and a biker chick. right?!? hmmm... and do i like this? well no not completely. i'd rather travel, write, play volleyball, play...instead. but im ok with it. i do like my life, alot, so...

it so awesome to follow you and share as you carve your life path witchazel. we are strong, we have choices, and we have the ability to hear our hearts. its a very cool thing.

picturewhatieat said...

Hang in there girl. It's your place to vent....I do it often :)

My husband is the same way that your are about being around sick people.