Focus......

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Wednesday, 27 October 2010

Over.........

Well my holidays finished today with me spending the whole day with my daughter just wandering around some shops and going back for some more salt & pepper calamari and a muffin at the fabulous cafe in Caloundra...
It was a perfect way to end my leave... we do get on like best friends and picking up the grandkids from school and day care afterwards was a treat all in itself...

I spent my leave at home, our  finances couldn't stretch to any time away and Hubby had to work the whole time, but it was nice and relaxing... I spent lots of time with Manda, I visited my parents, cleaned cupboards, did crosswords - something I haven't had time to do in ages. 

I ate mostly cleanly.. yes there was Mums date loaf, which I ended up carefully slicing and freezing and then defrosting a slice a day for almost a week then realising it was causing sugar cravings with big spikes and lows so I discarded about 2/3rds of it!! yes there was the peanut butter episode in which three big teaspoons full ended up jumping into my mouth before I even realised what I was doing... and there was a couple of slices of banana bread eaten instead of oats, the odd muffin, and for one whole day I rediscovered sugar free gum and then very quickly removed it from the house again when I went straight back to my old habits of eating my way through two 14 stick packets in one day and then fosicking for other foods which is where the peanut butter episode came from!!!

I know I eat through boredom and I have definitely been very aware of that while I have been home... If I sit still for too long my head thinks... foooood.... I have learnt to drink water instead of putting food in my mouth.. I have learnt to NEVER use sugar free gum to solve this particular habit!

I never missed a morning of cardio and don't plan to. I know most people drop it in the off season but it i such a habit to get up at 4.30 and I actually enjoy it... I keep it at between 65-75% heart rate even now that I am on the crosstrainer... I am considering changing back to the spin cycle tomorrow for a HITT session since my time will be reduced with work kicking back in, but honestly I have been fighting a nagging cough thing for around 5 weeks now, no flu symptoms just a stupid cough that comes on if I up the cardio too much so I will see what happens tomorrow and if it does cause the cough to flare up I will just go back to trundling for a while..

Training has been hard and heavy - back to 3 sets of 12 reps for most exercises, back to training with Hubby and back to DOMS back to increasing the weights I am pushing every time I train! I am loving it.....

The more I have thought about it the more I realise that I really can not compete at my age with my sagging stomach skin... in a perfect world I would pop out and have the saggy baggy elephant skin removed... but in the real world that won't be happening unless I look at selling my Broom and that is one hell of a tough call that I am not prepared to make... I mean I know I can still get up on stage and compete, but I have always done this to "compete", I do it cause I want to win, not to just prove I can stand on stage at 50, I do love it up there but it is an expensive hobby to spend 3 minutes on stage and come away with one photo, no T shirt, no "you did it" medal, no "thank you come again please"...

So now I am rethinking what I could do instead.... yes I know I have said triathlons before but I am not a runners bum crack and I really don't want to be... a runner that is not a bum crack.. hang on... I don't want to be a bum crack either... ummm damn now where was I??  Oh right not sure what I can do instead... I am competitive... do they have power lifting for Grannies???? ummmm nope no idea, would like suggestions if anyone has one....

Anyway tomorrow I am back to the windowless box and just saw on Facebook that the part-timer who was learning the ropes has quit... so it looks like my windowless box will be an interesting place to be when I get there... sigh....

Its supposed to be fine for the weekend ... looks like it will be Broom time! Yes there is no way I am giving her up!!!!

3 comments:

lastchancetraining said...

Cath, there is a Masters division in powerlifting and a plethora of other things to try (other than running). It's just hard to find focus after being comp prepping for so long...

Hugs
Liz;)

Kek said...

I'm still looking for my "thing". Soooo many things I DON'T want to do, but I can't put my finger on one I DO.

Triathlons would appeal if it weren't for the swimming. Yuk.

As for the expense of competing - find a sport or hobby that isn't expensive and you'll deserve a medal. LOL.

mq01 said...

gut reaction, i thought arms and lifting for you too.

the thought of being without a bike ever again would make me really totally completely down-right freaky and bitchy! lol!

hey, oooohhhh, i have a thought, ill send via FB. xoxo!