Sideways, sidetracked, sideswiped, sidesteps, side effects.....

When I started this blog.... in a place long ago and far far away... it was to be about stepping out of the overweight and sad me and into the world of health, fitness and figure competitions and how I did this and how I reached for my dreams...

This blog, like me, has grown and changed,  I have been sidetracked by sparkling shiny things and my thoughts have travelled sideways into the dark gloomy places that seem to appear when I had the least resistance.....

I have been sideswiped more than once with the surprisingly common nasties that come along for the ride when we are dieting, training, working, and living in a world that has little tolerance or understanding of carb depleted, cardio drained, insanely focused individuals who no longer fit into what is considered a "normal" extra large size mold...

While I try to keep this blog as honest and real as I can, I do still sidestep around some of my beliefs, since I am still a wimp when it comes to confrontation, and while I do enjoy a discussion, heated debates make me run fast... so I have left a lot of my thoughts on what it has taken, and what I believe it can take, to be a competitive figure competitor hidden away... I do this to avoid the side effects of unsubstantiated comments.... and that would be what my thoughts are.. unsubstantiated... and, as the saying goes... people who live in a glass houses should always wear underpants... ohh hang on.. wrong saying.. but an important one...

So after reading my last few posts I realise that my blog has definitely changed for the worse.... and what a negative slant I have taken in the past few weeks... WTF is with that!

All I can do.. after slapping myself around the head a few times with a wet paperbag, making sure my underpants are still on and generally giving myself a good telling off.. is apologise for my negativity!!! My excuse... as lame as it is... is that I am immersed in a very negative environment for a lot of my time and when I come home it does take about an hour to de-slime myself and find my positivity which is, by then, gaining the courage to climb out from under the doona it has been hiding beneath all day.... This usually happens after I have thrown some weights around....

Now I have said it before and I will say it again... honestly... this is not any sort of advertising crap at all... just honestly... Fitness Matters is one hell of a fabulously positive gym to train in and I have yet to do a session there and not come out of it feeling bloody amazing! All the other Gymineys (new word there folks, hope you noticed) are friendly and polite, the staff are always genuinely pleased to see you and I LOVE the place!!! If they had a lawn I would camp there... this would also save in petrol and time... hmmm damn them not having a lawn!

So I have vowed to once again change this blog... I am going to delve more into how and what I am training, what I eat, once again be honest about my good, my bad, and my ugly... yes I know.... sigh... I promise again to not be graphic about my ugly... gee your a tough and may I say a rather fussy audience...

The changes to the blog will start next week when I  embark on a new training and nutrition regime which will include no gym work at all and a zero protein, zero green food, high fat and hugmoungously heavy fast carb diet......  what.... do I hear a "Gasp!"

Just checking to see if you actually read to the bottom... of course I will still be going to the gym, didn't I just rave about the whole fabulousity of the place! And really... give up protein.... riiiigggghhhhtttt cause I'm a total nutcase who enjoys being obese and smelly and crapping stuff that never dissolves cause its so full of preservatives...  see that was just ugly... I did warn you .... what.. you weren't ready for the ugly.... you haven't been reading this at all have you... sigh...