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“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Sunday, 6 September 2009

Have to borrow Pooh Cherries

Thankfully the weekend turned out a lot finer than the weather reports promised so yesterday was a muck around kind of a day with training and cardio in the morning, house work later on, a coffee out, some shopping and then down to the the RSL (Yes back to my work - go figure!) to watch a band that was supposed to be great and turned out to suck.... badly...


But never mind I got to drink water and watch pissed people and that can be pretty entertaining!!! It also reminded me why I don't do that anymore even when I can... sorry but no matter how young or amazing you look you look and sound like shit when you're drunk... so there is no way an old lady like me wants to look like that LOL...


Today was great so off we went up the coast on the bikes, I could not get on mine fast enough LOL... Even though it was warm on the Island I threw on a denim jacket, but hubby decided it was already singlet weather... then we hit the highway.. and the clouds rolled over us.. brrrrrrrr glad I had the jacket Heheehehehehehe

Although the jacket didn't help with the bugs!!! It must be bug season or something, maybe its the spring has sprung thing, but hell they were everywhere and doing the whole kamikaze thing on our faces.. I ended up being hit smack between the eyes at one point.. Wow that smarts (yes using the polite words tonight)


So we stopped up the coast for coffee and hubby hit the local 2nd hand clothing store and found a Lee Cooper Jeans jacket for $15, its a great jacket, that he only needed to keep him warm coming home as he has about five denim jackets already, shame he didn't think of putting one on when we left home LOL..

Ohhh and I had a cheat meal!!!! Ok so that's a huge exaggeration.. the coffee came with a jaffa lolly... and I popped it into my mouth and then just sat there and let it melt through my mouth... couldn't chew it cause then it would be gone toooooo quick!!! It was just orgasmic!!!!!! I didn't want my black coffee after it cause I didn't want to loose the flavour LOL

The ride back was warmer - and yes it was bloody hard to come back, I really just wanted to keep riding but my stomach made me return, I'm sure that's why Hubby suggested we not take food with us LOL - Back home and out of the cool wind I sunbathed for a couple of hours and then had a great chat with my Son who I haven't caught up with for ages... awesome, just awesome, yep totally awesome... to hear from him even though he has the flu.....

Then off to see my Dad for Fathers day, lovely to see him and Mum, I know how lucky I am to still have them both... They had been out to lunch with my Brother and his family and had had a lovely day....


soooooooo you are asking... pooh cherries???

Yes thank you Fifi because as soon as the following happened I immediately thought of your Pooh Cherries as they so aptly describe how I felt!!!!

You see when I got to Mum and Dads I was grabbed by Mum and dragged into the kitchen and asked to show them how to use and set up the new cordless phone that my Brother and Sister had put in together to buy my Dad for Fathers Day..... Now this is going to sound pathetic but I am gutted, hurt, stung and totally pissed over that present...

Gutted..... because due to the attitude my siblings have to my Hubby they did not ask me to contribute to the present, in fact they just don't contact me at all now and this hurts, it fucking hurts bad...

They don't like Hubby, and as far as I am concerned they don't have to, but because I choose to love hubby they won't have anything to do with me....

Now I also believe that people in glass houses should not throw stones... I mean my Brother is up to wife number 6... I have been friendly and treated every one of the six as a family member, I have even been stupid enough to lie to number 4 for him when he was lining up number 5... And even to number 5 who threatened to assault me after my Brother ran away to another country to wife number 6 and asked me to look after number 5 and I said no... Wife number 6 is lovely, as I thought they all were, and I have been nice and welcoming to her, hey its not like I haven't had the practice!!! My Sister has decided that because Hubby disagreed with her hubby over something that happened to my house she pities me and hates hubby and so no longer contacts me...

So anyway there is this new flash, digital, whizz bang, all accessories available, phone for Dad, which is kind of interesting since Dad hates talking on the phone and Mum is the only one who uses it, but they can not use it since my Brother gave it to them and left.... Mum and Dad are 83 years old!!! They don't know how to set up a bloody cordless phone... so guess who had to get it working for them... which I didn't mind doing... for them!

and then, finally the POOH CHERRY... I came home crying with anger because of how I felt about my brother and sister and the sodding phone and then Hubby picks up our phone to call his Dad and....... Our phone line is not working... my phone is not working...

How fucking IRONIC is that....

And honestly..... Although I am aware that my life is pretty sweet compared to others...

I am getting so very tired of fighting for a break every day... so very tired of there always being just one more thing to smack me across the back of the head... juts one small reason why I just can't quite touch what I reach for.... and today this has made me feel very very old and very very tired and ready to toss the goals and just be a Nana cause god damned it would be so bloody easy...

7 comments:

mq01 said...

just be a nana? that would be TOO easy sweetie... i think your honesty to yourself is being tested, thats all. hang with those that love and support you; your hubby blingmaster extraordinaire, your kids, your parents, us... screw everyone else. ;)

Esme said...

Sorry Poo Cherries suck, had a few this week.

Honestly my answer - rye bread!!!! I'm a naughty little girl - see my blog. My answer this week is rye bread! Nah not good as that many CARBS distort my brain, but...

Poo Cherries, they are either a real physical problem as I had - fixed that with rye bread but other problems ensued, or they may be metophorical, like my latest Metaphorical Learning Environment.

But no they are acutally Poo Cherries, extra shit on top of every thing else!

Going to bed. The End. Would love comments.

Frankie said...

Sucks. That's all I can say before my exam cos I have to turn the PC off now!!

Glad you've got a word to describe it now though! You must first identify the poo cherry to FIGHT the Poo Cherry

xxxx

Vicki said...

Hang in there Cath. I know poo cherries SUCK and tend to hit all at once, it's like they are testing your spirit to see if you crack. You're a tough nut though so I know it'll take more than a few stupid poo cherries to break you. Stay strong babe and open that can of Whoop Ass on the pissy PC's!! xx

Raechelle said...

Hang in there chicky! You and I both know that tomorrow is a new day... always! The whole family thing does suck-but what can you do? They are the ones with the problem-not you.
I have no other words of wisdom...LOL...but I know you will get on with it and be the SUPER nana that you are...not "just" a nana :-) that would not fit you at all-you'd get bored damn fast!

Sandra said...

Cath,
You are SO much better than them (sorry I know they're your family) but you don't need them...
My hubby's brother came running to us (me especially) for support when he left his wife. Then he brought wife no 2 over for us to welcome, which we did. She turns out to be a possessive hypochondriac who is very jealous of how well brother in law got along with our family...so they don't even talk to us anymore...apparently I'm too "up-beat" (her words, not mine) so, go figure.
Honey, sometimes FAMILY SUCKS but don't let it break your spirit. You keep doing what you do best and stuff them!
xxx

Tearose said...

Hey Cath, gahh! I know what you mean about not quite being able to reach what your trying to get, oh and the whole family thing? My brother doesn't speak to me because I came here. lol smile and visualize it all working out just like you want.