Focus......

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”- Arnold Schwarzenegger
“The worst thing I can be is the same as everybody else. I hate that.” -Arnold Schwarzenegger

FIGURING OUT THE FIFTIES.... SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.......

Friday, 17 September 2010

deciding to make a decision

Its a tough choice when you are 4 weeks out from comp...

I am tired every day... my tiredness just comes in different degrees of "Tired"

Getting up at 4.30am is now an ingrained habit so I although I wake, when my mobile sings a pretty little dupp dooppp dup-dup, and immediately put my feet on the floor to ensure I actually get moving, I am tired... I never sleep right through the 7-8hours sleep I get on a good night due to the loo trips from the 5 litres of water consumed each day.. so I am now at the stage where I would happily kill the sleep fairy for her bag of fairy dust and eat her wings...

So, yes, every day I am tired, some days the Tired troll is waiting as soon as I open my eyes.. other days he lurks until lunch time then I just want to spend the afternoon snoozing... and for some reason this is frowned upon when you are working in an office... not sure why... maybe resting your head on the Enter key and drooling into the keyboard is dangerous???

Anyway, to me it is part of the pre-comp timetable.... never feeling full and being tired.. yep I am in comp mode... so I never really consider it an option to listen to the Tired Troll and not do something that I have to do to reach where I need to get to on the day of the comp....

But today... wow today the Tired Troll had decided to go out for a ride and I became best mates with Exhaustion!!!! I literally fell out of bed..

oooohhh which reminds me... the other night I woke up as I walked into the bedroom wall!!! I was dreaming I was going through a door and then BAM Smack into our bedroom wall!!! I then staggered to where I thought the next door way was and walked into a mirror that is luckily attached securely to the wall... weird!!! and lucky we don't live in a 17th floor apartment with big windows.. and now I keep wondering what was through that damn door I was going through...

oppps sorry sidetracked... as I was saying... After falling out of bed this morning I had kangaroo that had been slow cooking to measure out into day lots before heading to the gym... so the extra chore stopped me from sitting down which was probably a good thing as I was still struggling to stay awake... made it to the gym for cardio and honestly pathetically pedalled my way through 45 mins managing a grand total of three sprints and had to use my hands to keep my legs moving the rest of the time... The rest of the day continued in that manner.. shit I was exhausted... lucky for me so was the only other lady in the office today so we were both happy just trolling through the work without using energy to talk or move...

So when it came time to come home and train I new that this time I was going to have to decide whether I was just trying to get out of a session or if I was really too tired to train...

I also had the problem of misjudging the amounts of meals I had frozen from last weekend so I had run out of chicken, sweet potato and rice... so if I did go to the gym train, do cardio and then a posing session, I would be cooking till 10pm...

So for once I decided to not train, I needed to get organised and to rest, and tomorrow morning I will train what I would normally train on a Friday night... shoulders and Quads... with energy, and with passion rather than just going through the motions to get the job done...

Its a hard decision, I had to carefully work through how I felt to make sure I wasn't just slacking off, I never normally miss a session of cardio or training for any reason... but today I really knew it would not work... so for once I decided to make a decision.. lol

I am really excited about seeing everyone on stage on Sunday!!! Can't wait to meet up with the ones who are not competing this time as well!!!

So I am now off to bed nice and early... of course after the jelly has hit my belly :o))

GOOD LUCK AND HAVE FUN ALL YOU COMPETITORS!!!!!! See you SUNDAY!!!! YAY!!!

5 comments:

Sandra said...

I love your honesty in this post, Cath. I love your ability to have a giggle at yourself too. You are one amazingly dedicated athlete - Thanks for telling it like it is, the good and the bad. Best of luck with the coming weeks, you will get there, one foot in front of the other.
xoxox

Lynn said...

Is that carb depletion at it's finest? Kudos to you for making a decision on getting some rest and reorganizing yourself. Better day tomorrow. Have an awesome weekend.

mq01 said...

this post (and your blog changes) slammed me with some decisions needing deciding too, and btw how the hell does that happen, LOL! hope you've had a fabulous weekend recharging! hey, now im thinking, does mr bling master know how to cook? :)

Witchazel said...

Thanks Sandra... one foot and a time is about how it is at the mo :o))
Yep Lynn, it probably was carb depletion although I am still cycling my carbs so just when I have hit the bottom.. woohoo oats!!! lol
Ahhhhh MQ we do seem to be linked in some weird way don't we!! and NO, NO, NO Mr bling master can make things pretty but he can't cook to save his own life... and if he did it would probably kill him and whoever else ate it lol hang on I am lying, he can do an omlete, and oats... after about 2 years he finally got the hang of thoses lol

Witchazel said...

Thanks Sandra... one foot and a time is about how it is at the mo :o))
Yep Lynn, it probably was carb depletion although I am still cycling my carbs so just when I have hit the bottom.. woohoo oats!!! lol
Ahhhhh MQ we do seem to be linked in some weird way don't we!! and NO, NO, NO Mr bling master can make things pretty but he can't cook to save his own life... and if he did it would probably kill him and whoever else ate it lol hang on I am lying, he can do an omlete, and oats... after about 2 years he finally got the hang of thoses lol